It’s been a while since I last sat down and typed out words on these keys. Aside from sharing about what I learned from last year on my other blog it’s been weeks since I had the time {or energy} to share here.
I mentioned that my whole family was sick for weeks before Christmas. I dove right into Christmas preparations and then getting ready for 3 birthdays right after Christmas {including a party for my twins who turned 13. I’m now a mom of 3 teenagers! Yikes & how did I get here?!}. The whole time I was just putting one foot in front of the other and trying to make it through all of the busy and praying for some rest.
Of course the new year came and I honestly wasn’t ready for it. I was still trying to play catch up on a lot of things from last year. But I’m here now, in 2013, and looking back on last year I have to say I’m glad I made it but I must do some things differently going forward.
God was good last year {not that He isn’t always} in that I learned a lot, and had some amazing opportunities but if I am really honest last year was one of the hardest years I have had in a long time. I look back and see it as a good thing. I know that I was growing and stepping into new things that God had for me and I have been learning about the opposition we often face when we take new territory for God’s kingdom.
Last year I did such a poor job of managing my time though and I am so very glad that God got a hold of my heart and let me see this now. It is as if I can look back and see bad decisions highlighted in translucent yellow. I had so little margin in my life and tried to fit so much in. I also was pouring out so much and subjecting myself to very little refilling and refreshing. I made it to Fall and just felt like I had nothing left to give. Many of the things on my to do list were not negotiable {be a good wife, take care of 6 kids…} but many were. I thought I was doing a good job of seeking God for the truly great things and letting go of a lot of just good things but it requires constant reevaluation and I was too busy to do that.
I shared with my husband recently that I must become better disciplined in managing my time and be completely honest about who much or how little I actually have. When I think I can squeeze one more thing in when there is really no room for what’s already there then I am setting myself up for complete failure. I need to know my time and guard it well.
So why am I sharing all of this here? Mainly because I want to be real and honest in this space and share my failures as well as my victories as a means to encourage you. I am also sharing because I want you to be able to learn from my mistakes and also because I am not sure yet what God has in store for me this year. I am seeking Him about how to best use my time this year and don’t have it all figured out yet. I know that I will still be writing here {although how much I am not sure yet} as God has called me so assuredly to writing at this time. I also know that I cannot get away from His nudges to share more encouragement for moms over on my other blog this year. I get the sense that He is on the move to capture moms hearts and teach us how valuable we are in His kingdom.
I’ll continue to share here as God continues to press upon my heart His truths and His heart for you and me. May you be blessed in this new year as you seek to know Him more!
