You may know what I’m talking about – the secret hidden places inside of you that just reek of filth.  They are the places that get brushed up against and you cry out in instant defense, hoping to cover them.  When someone encounters them you grasp for covers to hide them, sometimes not even realizing what you are doing.  Sometimes it looks like a reoccurring fight with your spouse.  Sometimes it’s the place you get to in a friendship that you just cannot seem to go past.  Sometimes it’s that thing that your kids do that sets you off.

I’ve been dealing with some of these things.  They were tucked away in places deep inside that I hadn’t yet discovered.  They were there and would leap out in moments but I didn’t even realize what was happening.  They were too well hidden and had all kinds of excuses for the behavior they caused.

This is until I invited God to dig deeper into my mess.  I came to a place of trusting Him with my hurts and my mess.  I’ve only known Him to be gentle and loving, so I knew He would only expose wounds and lies with the greatest care.

He started showing me the ugliness of what I was unknowingly hiding – ugly, rotting places inside my heart.  He gave them a name: insecurity.  Yes, all of these festering wounds were surrounding insecurity.

When my husband would lovingly correct me and I pushed back in defensiveness: insecurity.  When my kids wouldn’t listen to me and I just all out lost it with them: insecurity.  When the unlovely were begging to be loved and I. just. couldn’t. find it in me to love: insecurity.

You see, along the way in life we have opportunities to see our circumstances how God sees them. But often times we don’t ask Him.  Instead we hear and believe lies that tell us who we are and how we should see things.  These lies are the knife that cuts the wound that insecurity infects.

But, can I share with you that Jesus, sweet Jesus, wants in to those deep places.  He wants to cover us as we rest in His truth.  He wants to be our source of security.  When we are secure in Him there is nothing that can happen to us that can cause us to lack security.

The wounds happen as we grow and fail and the enemy of our soul points out our weakness and tells us to hide.  “Did God really say that…”

He would love you no matter what?

He would cover you?

His strength is made perfect in your weakness?

He fights for you?

If He is for you who can be against you?

You are an overcomer?

The righteous fall 7 times and rise again?

Go hide your shame. Suck it up: insecurity.  Run scared.

And yet Christ willingly endured the cross, disregarding it’s shame because he was ever secure in His Father (Hebrews 12:2).

When the shame rises tell it who your Daddy is.  Tell it the truth. That you are a new creation and that you are not the sum of your weaknesses but you are made new and righteous.  Let Him heal those wounds and allow you to acknowledge the places you lack security and ask Him to show you how secure you are in Him.  Let Him do the dirty work that only He can do.

As you read this today did you identify with what I shared?  Do you see insecurity hiding in your heart?  Spend time asking God to meet you where you are and heal those places with His truth.  Exchange what He tells you for the lies that have lived in the deep dark places.  You will become new and your security will only come from your all powerful God.

I love you friends and I’m in this with you!