Overcoming the Cycle of Defeat

For the longest time I cried out to God about my mess.

“God, I can’t stay on top of everything.”

“God, nothing is working for me to overcome my mess.”

And He tells me that I must stay in my mess for a little while longer because no one else but He can make my mess into something beautiful.So I attempt to courageously battle the mess a few more days.

And then it happens.

I hear myself.

I hear:

“I can’t do this.””I can’t stay on top of anything.””this is too hard.””I am stuck.”And a gentle whisper reminds me who I am listening to in my mess. The father of lies had invited me to his mess party and I had been dancing with him over and over and over again.

“you can’t do this” he says.

“I can’t do this” I repeat.

“you can’t stay on top of anything.”

“I can’t stay on top of anything.”

“this is too hard for you.”

“this is too hard for me.”

“you are stuck.”

“I am stuck.”

The crazy thing is that I have already seen the Mountain Mover move my mountains and break off my chains. My mess and being stuck in it are all about who I listen to in the mess.

I could smack myself for buying into the lies. It isn’t easy to always identify when I am repeating lies fed to me but as I practice taking every thought captive I am getting better at it. Oh, and my attitude and outlook, even in messes, is so much better.

Who would have thought that I would actually be happy about having a messy life to teach me that seeking first the Kingdom of God also means that I choose to see God’s perspective first above what I see with my limited human vision. Now the conversations in my head are far different. With my ears open to the truth I hear things like:

“You can do all things through Me.”

“Nothing is too hard for Me.”

“I will give you rest.”

“Wisdom is yours when you just ask and believe.”

It’s a journey but I’m getting there. Oh, and the messes? They are slowly being overcome.

What are some of the lies that we, as moms, hear most often? What is the truth that sets us free from them?